No pictures or anything this time, I’m just typing for the sake of typing. Listening to Bob Dylan all night long tends to get the mind wandering.

I’m planning a trip up to the DZM on the 29th. We were going to go this weekend but the trip was booked solid. I thought it would be pretty easy to setup since they run the same trip up there every Saturday but I guess not. I might also go to a Korean baseball game next weekend depending on various things, so we’ll see. It would be nice to get out of the local area, that’s for sure.

Not much else going on these days. My eight year wedding anniversary is tomorrow. I can’t believe I’ve been married that long. Time has passed so quickly the last few years, I wish I could just slow everything down.

I have alot of quiet moments here, and thus alot of thinking time. I’ve spent alot of that time thinking about my children. It’s almost unbelievable to me how quickly the boys are growing up. The irony is I don’t really feel all that grown up myself. I definately don’t feel like a father of two who has been married for most of a decade.

I think back to my own childhood sometimes, and try to see myself as a father from that perspective. In the end I’m always left with the same feeling; I need to do more. As a father, as a husband, as a lot of things, I’m not measuring up to where I want to be. It’s a good thing though .. I know, based on the last few years, that I have the capacity to change things about myself when I chose to. I’m becoming quite aware of my limitations. More importantly, however, I’m becoming accustomed to facing them and changing them.

I wonder if anyone ever really feels grown up.