Well, a couple of things, actually.
I added the ability to subscribe to website updates via email. Any time the page gets updated it will send out an email to all the registered users letting them know. If you don’t want to get these emails you can disbale it in your profile. It’s not perfect but it seems to work well enough for the moment.
I’m also stumped, and need help figuring something out. I’m getting this growing feeling that things are .. different .. since I was home on midtour. I can’t really put my finger on it. When I first got here to Korea, I had all these ambitions. I was going to eat right and get in even better shape, I was going to get out and experience the local culture, I was going to try to learn some Korean. I made grocery shopping lists and cooked my own food. I went out on the weekend from time to time but it was rather irregular and certainly not anything I couldn’t live without. I called back home religiously, and frankly talked to my friends more than I did when I was actually IN Arkansas. I went down town and bought random Korean trinkets to send back home. I had all these plans to pass the time, and every day was one more day gone before I could go home and visit.
Now I’m back. I call home but it’s sporadic. I stay up until like 6am and then sleep all day until it’s time to go to work. I go out every weekend with the same people to the same bars and have the same conversations. I have very little interest in going anywhere and could care less about speaking to Koreans, much less speaking the Korean language. I pretty much eat whatever the Air Force is serving in the dining hall and occasionally stuff people moving out of the dorms leave in the kitchen. Tonight was the first time I’ve cooked in weeks, a glorious meal of macaroni and some chicken wings I found in the freezer awhile back. I’ve managed to keep exercising at least, but not as much as I’d like to. I’ve developed a rather new procrastination habit as well, even for things I enjoy like playing with my nifty XBOX 360. Why would someone put off doing something fun? It’s just weird. It’s all just weird.
At first glanced I’d say I’m depressed, but honestly I don’t think that’s it. From what I’ve heard this happens to a lot of people after they go home and visit. It’s like you build up all these expectations, and then the visit back home just kind of deflates it all. It’s a very marked change. Someone explain this, there’s got to be some fancy psychological mumbo jumbo to make it all fit together.
