Life .. lemons .. lemonade. Yada yada yada.

I’ve been trying to keep a positive outlook on this move to Missouri ever since I got orders to Korea two years ago. We requested it. We wanted to get out of Arkansas and it’s horrible school systems. We wanted to be closer to family as they get older. We wanted to buy a home. Personally, I wanted to get back to a base that I remembered as a good if not challenging work environment. All these things, we now have.

Unfortunately, as has become a reoccurring theme in my life, I failed to properly take into account the things I was giving up. A family friendly work schedule that didn’t rob my weekends and free time day after day, month after month. A state with so much natural beauty and potential for the stuff we enjoy doing that it seemed nearly limitless. And most importantly, a good group of friends that cannot really be replaced.

I have to say, I’m not enjoying things much right now. I feel trapped up here. I miss having a social life. Neither one of us has really met anybody we’ve clicked with. I’m starting to wonder if I’m just too old to make new friends at this point.

I’m rapidly getting sick of working as much as I have been, with no payoff. Not making tech this year was a real blow to my motivation factor, and I have nobody to blame but myself for not studying harder.

Riki and me really need to get away from here for awhile and just have some “fun” time, but every attempt some how gets thwarted. It’s so dang frustrating, and in the end there’s nothing you can really do about it but say “oh well, we’ll try again another time”. In the mean time life continues to tick on by. Grr.

There’s an awesome concert down in New Orleans that I would just about kill to go to but it’s not going to happen because of child care issues. I’ve been wanting to see one of the bands that’s going to be there for the last fifteen years. Why can’t children just be placed in stasis or something for a weekend? A big freezer perhaps? I’m sure we could some how incorporate laser beams and make it super high tech and safe. Wouldn’t that be a money making bonanza.

Oh well. Time to go to work.